Torn

Yesterday I posted this picture because I was so excited:

 I taught EDU 234 to 19 undergrads who are so excited to be back on campus and in classes. It's the first course I ever taught here, and it felt so, so good to be back. It feeds my soul.

But when I got home, I got a bit nervous. I was in a room with 19 undergrads. While we are masked, we are only three feet apart. Our numbers are inching up. I'd be lying if I said it didn't make nervous.

So I'm torn. And I'm letting myself sit with that for a while.